The Cause Can be Corrected!
When you stop everything and get quiet do you hurt inside? It is because God loves you that He has given you this awareness. You are not alone! Many feel the same way!
If you have the spiritual sensitivity to be aware that something is desperately wrong, you are right about what you feel. But don’t take what you feel as disapproval from God! Take it as God’s loving attempt to correct you.
What you sense is accurate—something is wrong. But what you feel is not reason to hide and stay away from God!
The Bible explains what you feel,
“Has a nation changed gods When they were not gods? But My people have changed their glory For that which does not profit. Be appalled, O heavens, at this, and shudder, be very desolate,’ declares the Lord. ‘For My people have committed two evils: They have forsaken Me, The fountain of living waters, To hew for themselves cisterns, Broken cisterns That can hold no water’” (Jer. 2:11-13).
Something is wrong—and all heaven weeps because of it!
What you sense is that all of heaven is appalled that God’s people are not drinking from “the fountain of living waters.” It is God’s strong disappointment that the “heavens” feel concerning “My people.” You feel it too. Keep in mind that God’s sadness is not all because of you. The problem is bigger than you.
God is waiting for His church to stop trying to dig their own wells that “can hold no water.” The church needs to repent by trading our earthly glory, “which does not profit,” for the glorious presence of God.
What you sense is the desperate cry of all of heaven.
God is waiting because He wants you to direct your heart toward drinking from the fountain and not from earthly things. Earthly sources hurt you and can’t supply what you were designed for. God wants what is in your best interest.
All of this to say that if you sense that something is desperately wrong with you inside, it is not something specific about you. It likely includes you, but what you sense is that heaven is “shuddering” at how God’s people are not drawing near and are not quenching their thirst for God. So don’t hold back. You don’t have to be afraid that the grace of God might not apply to you. It does. You just have to fight with your heart held beliefs that keep you from trusting grace.
Another thing you may sense is that God wants you to move forward in repentance. But knowing this so clearly, can make it hard at times to believe His acceptance. The difference between where you in your growth and where God wants you to be is always great. It is like we never catch up. The problem comes when we look at ourselves and don’t see us as God does. We see us as we are. God sees us in terms of what we can become. You have to learn to believe His love and acceptance of you and at the same time be willing to let Him move you ahead as quickly as possible. What He does, He does because of love. The time is short. And He knows it.
Hear this: Don’t let yourself avoid turning to God because of fear that something is so wrong with you personally that God won’t want you near. That is not true. Thank the Lord with great rejoicing and listen to yourself as you thank Him!
God does want you close. Jesus gave His blood so that we could have God’s approval without our having to do the impossible and earn it. God does accept you. Thank Him that He has made you sensitive enough to be aware that He wants you to move ahead. Thank Him that He has made you aware that something is wrong. But don’t let it slow you down. Go to work at directing your heart toward Him—fervently and with joy.